The hours I spend with you I look upon as sort of a perfumed garden, a dim twilight, and a fountain singing to it. You and you alone make me feel that I am alive. Other men it is said have seen angels, but I have seen thee and thou art enough.
~George Moore

A bell is no bell 'til you ring it,A song is no song 'til you sing it,And love in your heartWasn’t put there to stay -Love isn’t love'Til you give it away.

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

I need to move on..

I need to move on
no matter how hurt it is
but I still need to move on
without looking back the time
without looking back the history
yes, it is difficult
but I can just give up
and lost another opportunity
I need and MUST grab the other opportunity
and leave the history
let history become history..
no more history repeaters here..

I need to say goodbye to him
let him happy
and I know, there is someone better
outside there for me..
I know it...

Monday, August 16, 2010


yesterday, I told my bestfriend that I like sum1..
since sem 1 lagi..
yang laen sume dh tau pasal nie
dye je yang xtau I told him da truth..
pastu, dye ckp mcmnie
"ko carikla yang laen, dye tu nk stock yg free hair je"
well, act I know the fact yang mmg dye xpndg girls wif hijab nie
so, I pown mcm, wuteva..
and he told me again "ade ramai lagi selain dye yang ko bleyh carik"
well, carik tu mmg sng, tapi nak dpt tu yang susah..
wuteva la kan..
and u know people, after sesi luahan perasaan mlm smlm,
I can't even look at his face..(his means that demand guy yg nk hottie je)
rasa mcm menyampah je tgk muka dye..
and rasa MENYESAL sgt sbb suka kat dye...
and now, I need to move on wif my life..
ade benda yg more important than searching for love..
I need to focus on my studies, coz I dun want to make my parents sad
becsause of me..I made it once during SPM..and I will never let the history repeat again..
and my mom once said, "kalau kita ada pelajaran, semua orang suka..xpayah nak terhegeh2 dkt org tu."
and she also said that I deserve someone better than him..

p/s: I love my besties so damn much..thnx for ur advice..bfF jiha, mila, min..

Friday, August 13, 2010

mErEkA yaNG diRinduI

no word can describe how much I miss to see those people
oh, Lord please help me to face the difficulties
without my backbone..

mommy:azura adam
daddy:azhar yahaya

sista:aliah azhar

Thursday, August 12, 2010

bIcaRa hAti yAng teRLuKa

buAt apa awak Nak taHu iSi hAti saYa
kALau ia hAnya akan mEnJadi bahAn MaiNan awaK..
sAya MeRana, awAk gEmbiRa..
sAyA mEnAngiS, aWak tErTawa
biArLah sAyA pEndAm rAsA hati
wALau tErseksa
sAya SangguP
dAri diPermainKan maruAH
dan KehormAtan dIrI..

hAtI iNi..

biLa hAti bErbicaRa
menGukIR nAma Cinta..
tErAsa iNdaH
waLau Cuma seKetikA..
HaTi teRhias TamaN
pEnuh deNgan waRna KEinDahaN
mEkar daN beRkemBanG
peNuh deNgan HaruMaN...

aah, biLa hati beRbicaRa
yaNg LuKa diPenDam
yaNg suKa ditAyanG..

sAkit tiDak diKetahui
pAbiLa hiPerboLa bertukaR meLankoLik
yang mAnis hiLang GuLanya..
YanG taWar beRtamBah gAramnya..

iTuLah LuMraH haTi.......

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

gEmBiRa di DaLaM sEdiH..

Friends, I'm jealous with u..
u know what, u got what u want,
and I, I just can dream on it..
Dream that will never come true..

I'm happy with u guys..
u are like my sistas
I'm just jealous because u get what u want..
but please, don.t think negative..

I love u people..
and I mean it..

I just can pray for ur happiness..
I'm happy when I see all of you are happy..
I'm sad when I see all of you are sad..

I'm just a normal person who have a complete feeling of
happy, sad, angry, JEALOUS....
I can't eliminate those feeling because I'm just imperfect..

In thee my soul shall own combined the sister and the friend. ~Catherine Killigrew

bfF sayangs <33

Tuesday, August 10, 2010


hye readers :D (bajet mcm ramai je yg bace..hehe)
I want to tell u my feeling entering debate..
It was fun babeyh!! seriously..
ok, dis debate competition is between part 3 classes
and our class sent 2 teams..
at first, I'm not the one who going to participate in da debate
because I am only reserved..
so, I never thought, things will change..
lepas kelas kitorg kalah dgn bdk kelas A,
my team mates mcm down giler because of certain reasons..
pastu utk 2nd game, our 2nd speaker, nonoi nk tarik diri
sbb dye x larat..
but, dye tarik diri lagi 5 minit b4 competition begin..
u know what people, I giler kelam kabut
sbb never expect this will happen..
so, I replaced her,
seriously, it's like shit..
I've no idea on what to say
how to rebut
because It was my first time..
sumpah teruk giler..3 minit je kowt..
waktu tu, I blame myself kalau kalah
sbb elin and fariz were superb..
fortunately, kitorg mng..
then, g semi final..
same thing goes to me..
but, there's lil bit improvement,
where I know how to rebut the point,
I know how to explain da pont
even my explanation is just like fariz..
lantakla, asalkan more than 6 mins..
alhamdulillah, mng lagi n masuk final..
final nie serious takowt giler sbb dhla wat kat ds
pastu ramai giler penonton yg dtg..supporters lagi la..
sumpah wktu nie, my face look very pale..
I can't even smile at that time..
almaklumla, 1st tyme kowt..
what do u expect from da 1st time debater
other than pale face,nervous, gugup x bleyh b'ckp..
but, I'm not dat bad la..
i still can talk, cuma nervous giler la kn..
so, da result,
elin was da best speaker and
we won 2nd place..
xpela, at least we had fun
and I gained new experience :DD
luv PL3G...
thnx to my team mates elin, fariz n nonoi..
u guys were great..
to jiha n mila, thnx for being there in every second for us
n PL3G-ians..sumpah syg giler kat korg <3 <3 <3

Thursday, August 5, 2010


seriously, I felt very lonely lately
and sorry to say that
I'm jealous to those
yang ade partner..
yes, I know that
it sound ridiculous and yet sound so desperate..
but,I'm just express the truth..
no lying..
I don't to get involve on that particular
messy thing..
susah hidup..
single is better...
kurang sikit dosa..